5/28/2023 0 Comments Lynn steger strong want![]() ![]() ![]() I try to read a book but fall asleep if I’m sitting and almost fall over if I stand. I often get no seat and stand, trying not to grab hold of close-by arms or shoulders as the train turns hard, stops short. Sometimes, the train’s right there, doors already open, as I pass through the turnstile, and I run, my bags flapping against my hip and back, up the stairs and through the crowd of people, slipping through the closing doors. I wait sometimes three minutes for the first, sometimes fifteen. I take two trains to get to work and neither of them runs well. My body is outside the halo of hot water and my skin mottles and I shiver and am cold as I wait for him to come. He pushes me up against the grimy tiles, holds my leg up. ![]() He bends me over the railing of the back ledge. ![]() Sometimes my husband slips into the shower while the children are still asleep and we have sex. I turn off the alarm and put on my bra and tights and shirt and shoes and gloves and headband, grab my keys and phone, and lock the door behind me I run miles and miles before anyone wakes up.īy 6:15, I’ve showered and dressed and started to make breakfast. I climb down in the dark and find the phone, which has often fallen. MY ALARM GOES off at 4:30 every weekday morning, and I keep my phone lodged between the slatted stairs that lead up to the lofted bed my husband built us in the closet we use as a bedroom, so that I’m not able to press Snooze. ![]()
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